~ :+: 100% M.y W.o.r.l.d. :+: ~

It's a great week!

2009-10-09T02:20:00.007+08:00

it's been a great week. most of the things is going on smoothly... hold her gentle hand yesterday... kissed her for the 1st time yesterday... though she's still shy. especially when her sister is around. but i still feel it was good to spend so much time with her... but i feel bad for making her sleeping late every nite. because i dun wan to leave her each time i see her... she have to wake up 6am every weekdays.

like i said in my previous post, it's been a while since i had a feeling towards someone. i really hope everything will work out fine. i thing i like bout being with her is, i can be myself. i don't have to act like i am a saint... or a good person. i am who i am. i enjoy the fact that i can be myself when i am with her. not pretend myself to be someone else just to be close to her. i think it would b better if she knows my true character from the very beginning.

bits n pieces...

2009-10-05T01:51:00.002+08:00

have been clubbing for the past 7 weekend... time to stop for a while. it's been a crazy 7 weeks. last week is a little bit different. last week i've been spending most of my time in kepong after work. not for clubbing... but to see someone. i've spend the whole saturday with her. went for a movie, then have dinner and after that went for some little shopping. i get her a little b-day present. her birthday is actually next next week. but she won't be around then. so... i celebrated it earlier for her.

it's been a while since i got feeling for someone. i don't know whether she's going to give me any chance. i've already told her how i felt. but so far, i haven't get any signal of rejection (thank god). so... i think i am going to take things slowly from now onwards. just in case i don't scared her away.

hopefully everything is going to be fine. wish me all the best~

2009-08-30T22:45:00.002+08:00

in my life, there's a lot people that passes through. some leave a good memories. some leave a sad memories. but luckily most of it are leaving good memories in me. but no matter what memories they left behind, i still need to move on. the world won't stop just because of me. i still have to live each and every day. no matter happy or sad.

it's been almost 8 months since i broke up. the first few month was quite hard. but thanks to all my friends, i can easily move on with my life. maybe it's because i wanted to get over it too. that's why it's easier for me to heal. being single is not really a bad thing. i can go anywhere with anyone i like.

topic of the day....

2009-06-18T18:59:00.004+08:00

today's main topic of discussion in the office is... who's name will appear in the termination list. the meeting yesterday had a very bad effect on all the staff. it's very de-moralising. everybody had lose their interest in doing their things right.everybody seems to be worried bout the situation. for me, there's not much point of being worried. if u r the unlucky ones that was chosen to be terminated, then it's too bad. but that is not the end of the world. i personally thinks that chances doesnt stop there. life must go on. just need to get a new job and survive.

from the rumours ligering around my field of industry, most big agencies is in frozen mode. the financial crisis has finally hit the advertising industry. most agencies is not taking in new people. to me, most agencies doesnt mean all agencies. my requirement toward the job hunting is simple, as long as the pay is worth the load of work and is sufficient for me to survive.

bits of me...

2009-06-17T23:16:00.005+08:00

it's been about 1 month we've known each other... the 1st 2 weeks, we've chat a lot, we've been msging each other a lot too... it didnt lasted that long. then the chat is getting lesser and lesser... is it me or i m feeling u are trying to avoid me. or maybe it's bcos i've been quite busy with my works, and u too are busy with works... i'll have to admit that i think of u lesser and lesser. the feeling is still there, but it's not as strong as few weeks ago...

today, the GM call for a staff meeting. it's kind of surprising bcos we normally will b inform about staff meeting at least 1 week earlier. but today's meeting was informed 1 day earlier. today's topic is about the company's performance. the company is not doing very well. the finacial crisis has finally hit our company. so the board has decided to take a drastic step to counter the problem. the board has oredi decided 2 steps... 1) there will be a salary cut... with immediate affect. 2) they will be terminating staff... but it will only be inform to the involved party in 2 days time. basically, the most affected ones are the contractual staff, higher post people... nothing much i can do about thins... will have to wait until they announce who's going to be terminated.

Plain White T's - 1, 2, 3, 4

2009-06-09T00:10:00.001+08:00

1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

Give me more lovin' than I've ever had
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

Give me more lovin' from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

1, 2, 3, 4
I love you
I love you

this is a very nice song. feel so relaxed when listening to this song. now the song is stuck in my head...

Weekend

2009-06-07T01:14:00.002+08:00

erm... dunno whether it's a good thing or a bad thing... the more time u have being alone, the more things u'll start to think about. for me, weekend is just another boring day to go through, unless of course, it wont be if i have some plans on mind. there's no difference today, been sleeping the whole morning. then didn't do much in the afternoon. just spend some time playing with my guitar. listen to some songs... starts to miss someone deep down inside my heart... miss someone that i m not supposed to... miss someone that wont miss me(i guess)...

then, in the evening went to play badminton... it feels good to sweat! after badminton, went for dinner. nothing special for dinner. after dinner, came home and watch movies, chat with friend. well, that's pretty much a whole day for me.... and here i am, writing this blog out of boredom...

无聊的星期天

2009-06-07T00:56:00.001+08:00

无聊的星期天没有朋友在身边

一个寂寞的人在街头走了半天

突然发现有扇门在我眼前

曾经常常到来寂寞时都有你在

你说快乐的时刻就快要逝去

你问我当分手是否会哭泣

我说我须要时间想一想如何回答这个问题

天已黑和你守在一起

守着天空最明亮的星星

和你诉说我们的过去

和你谈谈未来你我会在那里

这一首歌我已经唱了几遍

你没有发现我静静坐在旁边

看着一切将要逝去我无奈的闭上眼睛

一阵风轻轻吹起吹进你脆弱的双眼里

这一刻所有游戏都已暂停

快乐的天使都像戴着面具

其实每个人心里知道东天已来临

所有的开心伤心已渐渐随风而去

不能再掩饰自己闪烁的眼牟已泄漏秘密

这一刻我们紧紧拥在一起

祝福的言语都说的不停

虽然这一切已到了终点

我想谁都不原就这样说再见

无聊的星期天没有朋友在身边

一个人带着寂寞这一切又再重演

突然想起多年前的那张笑脸

又再次出现在我脑海里和你再次相见

记得你曾说快乐的时刻就快要逝去

你问我当分手是否会哭泣

我想我必须到了那一天才能够告诉你

词：黄伟强

曲：黄伟强

Another song composed and written by my elder brother.

Jonas Brothers - Love Bug

2009-06-06T15:57:00.001+08:00

Called her for the first time yesterday
Finally found the missing part of me
Felt so close but you were far away
Left me without anything to say

Now I'm speechless, over the edge, I'm just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again

I can't get your smile out of my mind
(I can't get you out of my mind)
I think about your eyes all the time
You're beautiful but you don't even try
(You don't even, don't even try)
Modesty is just so hard to find

Now I'm speechless, over the edge, I'm just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again

Kissed her for the first time yesterday
Everything I wished that it would be
Suddenly I forgot how to speak
Hopeless, breathless, baby can't you see?

Now I'm...

Now I'm speechless, over the edge of this, breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again
Love Bug again

不懂为什麽

2009-06-04T02:58:00.016+08:00

当他们突然说起关於你我只有静静坐在旁边听
我只想知道多一些关於你的东西

当世界渐渐改变了四季当春夏秋冬都已成过去
在这段慢长的日子里对你的感觉还是那样痴迷

我不懂为什麽有这麽多的女子
偏偏让我选中你让我对你动心
也许是因为一双眼睛
也许是因为天意注定

我不懂为什麽有这麽多的女子
偏偏让我在深夜里每晚把你想起
也许是因为已经注定
也许是因为我已爱上你

词：黄伟强
曲：黄伟强

this is a song composed and written by my elder brother. he gave this song to me a few years back...

it's complicated... maybe... maybe not...

2009-06-01T02:04:00.003+08:00

when i see someone put their relationship status as it's complicated, it makes me think... wat's so complicated? i've ask myself many times. i come to my own conclusion... when u love someone, u want to b wit him/her. u'll miss him/her a lot. u'll wan to see him/her more often. u'll wan to include him/her in ur plan for future. when u love someone, u'll love without questioning the past. because the one u love is in present. the future is full of mystery. so i wouldnt know what will happen next. but i will oni hope that the person i love is with me in my future. when there is 2 of these person appear in ur life, u'll have to decide, which one do i miss more, which one do i wan to be with now...

i find it quite painful b stuck in a triangle love affair. been there, done that :) but mayb it's me... so far, i've gotten in many relationship that makes me the 3rd person. it's kind of weird that the girl i always fall for is someone's gf. up until now, i m still like tat =.="

oh well... just some of thoughts when i cant sleep...

2009-05-31T22:59:00.001+08:00

I Miss You Like Crazy
Artist: The Moffats

I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that i never had

When i think of you
I don't know what to do
When will i see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl i'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

You are all that i want
You're all that i need
Can't you see how i feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real

When i think of you
I don't know what to do
When will i see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl i'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

This is quite an old song. but it says what my heart is thinking.

~Memorable Redang Trip~

2009-05-20T13:55:00.046+08:00

went on a relaxing trip to Redang Island on the 15-17 May 2009... get to know 3 new friend who went on the trip with me. i went with 4 other. 1 is my housemate, wei li, and the other 3 girls. on the 1st day, i only got to know their name(Vernace, Emily, Evans) right before went on the bus. at beginning, it's a bit awkward... but soon after the bus start moving we got to know each other a bit better. Vernace is the most "ganas" girl among them. Emily is a bit shy in the beginning... but she turns out to b a evil & dangerous girl... Evans was the normal ones.

We took a night bus ride to Kuala Terengganu and reach around 4.30am, 15th May... we were a bit too early as the agent will only pick us up from the bus terminal around 6am(according to Vernace). so we went to McD to grab some snacks. then we waited there until around 5.45am... then she called the agent. then we found out..... actually the agent was already there around 4am! arghhhh! we got cheated by Vernace! Vernace also told us that the ferry will only be at the jetty around 12 pm... deep down inside i was thinking " WTF! we have to wait another 6 hours to get the boat ride???" anyway... i didnt really believe her... my instinct was right. when we ask the agent bout the ferry ride, he told us, we are leaving at 7.45am to the jetty. then will take a ferry to Redang Island! and again Vernace bluff us =.="

the weather is quite good... upon reaching the island... i look at the sea.... it was blue... the water is so clear that i can see the sand underneath. i m feeling exited already. we reach Redang Reef Resort around 10am.

upon reaching, we were given brief on the do's & dont's. i m actually quite tired from the long ride. but looking out at the sea... the clear water beach... all the tiredness is gone... i felt so relaxed! the lunch was served at 12pm... after having our lunch... we went back to our room(quad-sharing) to rest for a while and get ready to go snorkerling! the 1st session is going to Marine Park... this is the 1st time i snorkelled. i m actually a bit scared and nervous... but... whatever... i paid for all these oredi...

after the snorkelling session, we went back to the resort and had our tea break. after the tea break, we start to snap pictures... walk around the area... the we went to another resort. hmm... there is a sign near their swimming pool "Strictly For Laguna Beach Resort Guest Only"... then i told my friends... i dont like this rule, and i m going to break it... hahaha! so we went and swim in their pool!

after trespassing the other resort's pool, we continue to walk along the beach for some sightseeing. snapping pictures... snap here, snap there :) then we saw a group of people playing beach volleyball... so we ask if we can join. the group of people is friendly enough to let us join ^^ so we played for a while... until our hand hurts! hahaha! after playing beach volleyball, we walk back to our room, preparing to have dinner.

after dinner, we went back to our room again to have a baths and have a little rest... actually after bath i dooze off as we were lying on the bed to relax... haha! we don't really have any plan for the night actually. but around 9pm, there was loud music, good music! i was wake up by the music. but thanks to the music, wei li was awake... so... both of us plan to out and see what's happening? where the heck is the music coming from. at first we tot it was nearby. but when we went out, we found out that the music is actually from across the beach. there was a beach party going on. so wei li n me walk toward the party place, The Happening. the DJ was quite good. once reach the place, we bought a drink. i get myself a small bottle of beer... and wei li just drink coke... he's not an alchohol fan.

then we find a chair (for sunbathing) to lie down. i look up the sky... so relaxing... there were so many stars! then we thought of the girls! so i ask wei li to call them up... wei li called vernace, no respond... then called emily, no respond. probaly bcos the coverage there is a bit sucky. then wei li SMS them. in the end, only emily got respond. she was actually hesitating wether want to come out or not. in the end, she came :D at 1st, the music they put is nice, R&B and hip hop.. then it switch to house(which most people dun really like).

the crowd is getting smaller and smaller. the DJ realised tat, so he come up with erm... some activity... he ask all patrons to go to the beach, hold hands together and form a big circle. so... we followed his instructions from then on... the DJ put the chinese song for a movie(夏日嬤嬤茶) which actually made redang famous. can considered as the Island theme song(浪花一朵朵). so we walk(and a bit of running) in circle... walk to the left, walk to the right... the in the middle of the song, the DJ told us to run forward! as u can imagine, it's a circle, so when we run forward, eventually we will run into the person standing on the opposite side! it was so fun... everyone is enjoying it! then the mood is back! so everyone is back to the dance floor(actually is sand floor, The Happening is not a indoor club. hehe!) had a great time shaking our body on the beach... for the 1st time wear shorts n slippers to party... after tat, again we sit at the chairs n lie down to enjoy the view of sky filled with stars! then we went back to sleep... when we reach our room, i can hear Vernace snoring... hehehe... she must have been tired... it's not very loud... but still can hear it :P

the 2nd day, Vernace wake me up... i think is the 1st time i saw her shy face throughout the trip :P so as scheduled for the day... we went for breakfast. After breakfast, while waiting for the rest to get ready, Vernace and me went to a big rock opposite the room to sit and sunbath for a while. Then we went to snorkelling,.. nothing much special on this snorkelling trip. just that, i m not nervous or scared anymore. it's actually quite fun. after the snorkelling session, Vernace ask the life guard to bring us to see baby sharks... and the life guard is very nice guy, he did bring us to see baby sharks... but... there was no shark... instead, we saw a turtle :D After we had our lunch, some went back to the room to rest and wait for the lunch to be served. Emily didnt bath before sleep(=.=" eck eck). Vernace and me went to the beach, and have a nap. the wind was so.... comforatable.

We rest for about an hour. Then, we went for another snorkelling session. erm... the snorkelling session is quite tiring and fun. but quite dissappointed, because there is not much nice corals to see... right after the snorkelling session, another life guard bring us to find baby sharks again. this time is at another location. we find for quite a while... actually already given up hope to see baby shark. but... suddenly, we saw 2 baby sharks swimming around! i was so excited! After we are satisfied with snorkelling, we went for our tea break.

After the tea break, the girls went back to the room and bath. Wei Li and me went to trespass the Laguna Beach Resort's pool again :P Wei Li dived-in... so i wanted to try... and .. it's a painful try... we went to a jacuzzi. it was so relaxing. after swimming for about an hour, we went to have a walk at beach. then we bump a group of people playing beach volleyball. the group went to snorkelling with us. so they ask us to join them :) so we did :P after a while, the girls came and joined us. and again, we are snapping pictures here and there :D

after walking around, we went back to our room and prepare for dinner. today, they serve barbecue style... the food was nice... but the portions was a little too much. after diner, we went back to rest... Wei Li and me went out to the beach to sit at the chairs and enjoy the wind and the view. i dooze off... the wind is relaxing and it makes u feel sleepy... after about 1 or 2 hours... the girl are done resting and called us up and wanted to go play pool at the nearby resorts. so we play a couple frames. the girls can play pool...... ya.. they can just play :P
after playing pool, we went to a cafe, Summer Point, to have a supper. there was a live perfomance. they are great! i guess that should be one of the good performance i've seen at a cafe :) enjoys the music, the song they sing, their voice is just great. after finish our supper, we went to the chairs nearby to lie down and enjoy the view of sky filled with star... feel sad at that particular moment. don't like the thought of leaving the next day.... i m going to miss all the joy and fun on the island. i m going to miss Vernace... Emily... Evans.... everything....

throughout the trip, we have a lot of fun. eventhough i've known the girls for only 3 days, but it didnt felt that way. it felt like i've know them for years! i got specially close with Vernace, she had the charateristics that somehow attracts me, just too bad i know her too late... emily... she's a little bit slow to get along with... but eventually, we are close enough to call ourself friends. Evans, she's the quiet one. didnt really kept in touch with her. Wei Li... i see him everyday! haha! this is one trip i've enjoy so much!

a little updates...

2009-01-04T20:01:00.005+08:00

went on a vacation trip to Hat Yai on the 26-29th Dec... It's quite a good experience for me since I've never been to any other country. It's actually quite true when people says Thailand is a paradise... especially for men. Anywhere you go, there is somehow a place trading sex(of cos it's not cheap). well, enough of that already...

Other than that, I like the food over there too. anywhere I go, there's people selling pork. Even on the roadside. Even in the McDonald's. The people there is actually quite friendly. I didn't do any shopping over there... Can't find anything I like... i guess...

After coming back from the trip, I know I can't be happy anymore. This is because I've made a decision. A decision that will hurt the one I love... and myself. A decision that been going on mind for long time. Do i really love her as deep as i m 2 years back? This is the question i keep asking myself... my answer is "not anymore". the feeling had slowly fade away from me.

Before I go more on my story... here's a little history... I know her through a friend in 2005. We started our relationship in the 2006. When we started the relationship, I know she had a bf... but she had problem with him, planning to break up... and bla bla bla... I guess you can get the story, right... after nearly 2 years, she's still with him. whenever I ask about the situation, the conversation will turn cold... I fully understand that as the 3rd person, i dont really have the right to question since i know it from the start. So I decided to tell her, if she cant make a choice by the end of 2008, it will be the end of us. not to threaten, it's just that I'm tired of waiting.

she was here in kl with me on the last few days of the year.. I ask her one last time, has she break up with him... she said no. then i ask, when do you plan to do so? she say dont know.

I think that is the last time I'll be asking her those question. On the day she leaves KL back to her hometown, I SMS her, let's just break up, dont have to force yourself to break up with him if it's too hard... we've oni been together 3 years, but with him, it's nearly 7 years. It should be easier to break up with me than him.

Now is the 4th day... I think I've receive more than 100 SMSes from her... which starts to annoyed me... in the SMS, she says, she already break up with the other guy actually in NOV. she's planning to give me a surprise in CNY. and actually she have also plan for next years trip to KL...

Some of you might think I'm cold-blooded and cruel... because I only reply her, i'm sorry, it's too late to tell me now. the feeling completely faded the moment i ask u the questions. After the sms, i still receive a lot other msg.

Anyone who's reading this, pls give me some advice.... TQ

2008-07-20T18:25:00.004+08:00

2 years n 4 months... I didn't realise it's been that long since I blog... A lot of things happened in these 2 years. Things that happen in my family, my life, my career, my friendship... But time really flies when you are not counting it.

IN 2007
I'm still working in Magic Color Sdn. Bhd. The situation turn from bad to worse. Old staff resigning. The company was under-staff. From 25 people working, only 10 stays with the company. Even my 2nd boss leave the company(so... u know how "good" is my 1st boss :P). The only thing i miss in the company is the people that have work with me for about 2 years. Then again... most of them is not there anymore. The only reason I've stayed there so long is because of my 2nd boss. He's a good boss.

IN 2008 to NOW
I've resign from Magic Color Sdn. Bhd. Now I'm working in Milk & Co Sdn. Bhd, formerly known as DDB Int'l, an advertising agency. it's a sister company of Naga DDB. Still working as a Graphic Artist, but the work there is better than my old company. In my old company, my title is the same, Graphic Artist... but actually is doing everything... from marketing to designing to printing to finishing and sometime despatch. Now, I only have to do my part of work. I guess this is what 'organized company' means. Do only your part. Life is a lot better now. I get to do what i want. With the salary offered, I can start to enjoy my life a bit. I think I have lost contact with most of my classmates... no more gathering... no more outings... but then, i come to know more new friends. And of course still keep in contact with old friends.Nothing much change in my family. Things is as normal as old time.

P/S: will try to update more :P

back on track....

2006-03-31T12:43:00.000+08:00

everything seems to go back to the same.... i m now ok oredi~ the depression n sad period has become a history which i couldn't change. life still goes on as usual nowadays... but one thing remains the same... i'll blog after a long long time~

sorry...

2006-03-17T22:46:00.000+08:00

i m sorry.... i won't be blogging for sometime... for those who know me... if u all want to get to know my news, just give me a call~ i will be available for yum cha anytime, any place~

old frens~

2005-10-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

after four month, it's the 1st time i went to Time Square & Sg Wang... actually wanted to go there just to buy guitar strings... then i decided since i m there i'll go and meet up some frens...

1st, i went to find loo wei cos i park my car in Time Square. she's working in City Chain. chat with her for a while only cos she seems busy. well~ it's sunday, so more customers for her to serve... after updating some stuff with her, i went to Sg Wang to find carol. it's been a long long time ever since the last time i saw her~ she hadn't change much... we talk quite a lot~ i think i spend quite some time in her shop. then i went to shop for my guitar strings. walk around Sg Wang fo a while... today there is this event promoting a new magazine "Jasmine". loads of people was there to get free gifts. and a lot of "leng lui" for me to see oso~ :P after that i had lunch wit carol in KFC. talk to her quite a lot though... damn i miss those days we spend during tat 2 years in college... how i wish we could have a gathering again... but i think it's hard nowadays cos everyone have their own stuff to busy with... summore the time that we are free are different. sigh~

after having lunch with carol, i went back home...

long long time since i last blog :)

2005-08-28T16:56:00.000+08:00

it's been three month since i've blog... life have been so busy. i think i've stop blogging ever since i started to work. it's been three month i've been working in the same company. well... everything is going quite ok. all the people there is nice and easy to get along with... all except one... my boss. he is considered an asshole that like to scold people with no reason. i have been planning this a long time... to quit the job and find a new job. but now is already the 3rd month here. i think i just get over with my probation, get the EPF thingy settled... then i will quit this job.

working in this company is ok.. but the pay is considered not worth the work we are handling. imagine... we will only get RM7 for allowance after 12 hours of working. we don't get any OT charge... that means if i go in work at 9am, if i work until 9pm... i only get RM7. the worst thing is... if after 9pm and i still continue working... i dun get anything other than the RM7. with this kind of pay... who would want to work so hard for this company. no people is willing to spoil their health just for the stupid RM7.

haih~ i think i've been bitching enough about the company... exam is coming soon~ my paper will be on the 9th of september... hope i can get the paper cleared and graduate this time... wish me luck~

it's been a while~

2005-05-26T23:31:00.000+08:00

it has been more than 3 weeks since the last time i blog... dun really have the mood to blog ever since i got my result. i have failed 1 subject... this means, i couldn't join the convocation held in july... sigh~ there is nothing much i could do about it. the result is already out...

but at least something cheer me up... i've found a job as a graphic designer. it was so unexpected. this is because, eventhough i still had 1 paper not yet cleared, the boss is still willing to hire me~ i guess my luck is not totally bad at all. the job i found was in a printing company. the company is called Magicolor Sdn. Bhd. it is located in PJ... somewhere near to Ikano Power Centre. the pay is considered ok for a fresh graduate. but truly, it's not enough since i have to cover my rental, fuel and toll charges. lucky i had a full support from my parents. they said they will give me financial support if i am having trouble. my dad got me a car for me to get to work...

gonna start working 1st june... wish i won't have any trouble in the company... especially with the collegues~ wish me luck :)

Visitors~

2005-05-02T16:04:00.000+08:00

my aunties from singapore had came to my hometown to visit~ it ws so nice of them to travel such a long journey on the bus. the journey took them about 9 hours. my mum was so worried about them... normally, it'll took about 6hours only. they didn't bring any handphone, so it's kind of difficult to contact them... well... at last they arrive safely~ they stayed for 2nights.

no news from the job i applied few days ago... i think no point in waiting already~ going back to kl next week... my bro offered to fetch me back to kl~ he found a job in kl already... he'll start working in june. he'll be going to kl to look for a place to stay. he plan to stay at my place for a few days. now, there will be only my parents staying in hometown... feel kind of sad leaving them... but, we have no choice... hope we can visit them more often when we are working...

job~

2005-04-30T12:25:00.000+08:00

i start to look for a job now~ there is only 2 things i worry about... the 1st is, i couldn't find a job... the second is, if i found a job very far from my place, i'll have to move... but... not much choice i have~ if i were to find a job far, i'll have no choice but to move.

i've been surfing around the net for job vacancies. it seems like most job i found is near PJ and Subang.. which is the both place that i'm not familiar with...

nth much for this entry... too much thing to worry... no mood to blog~

genting trip~

2005-04-27T00:14:00.000+08:00

fun fun fun!!! this is all i can say about the trip.

the trip started off quite unpleasent... we gather at LRT station at 8 am... but we have to wait for JL. we waited for him almost an hour. so we took the 10am bus. reach genting highland around 12pm. right after we check-in, we headed straight to the theme park. at first, everyone seems to be stick-together. but after a few games... some seems to be hungry... and some doesn't really wan to play those ride... so we ended-up splitting into 2 group of people. after playing the new roller-coaster, we had lunch at First World Plaza. after lunch, some went back to ria apartment 1st... that make the group even smaller now... now only left me, yee ping, jin loon, ting ting and kuan yik. we have quite some fun though~

then we went back to ria also. most of us are tired since we have not stop playing ever since we reach genting. some even feel a little sick. i think it's because of raining when we just reach genting... most of us sleep for a while... then after taking a nap... we went for our dinner. for dinner, we split up... it's better to go find our own food as different have different taste... after dinner, it seems to be no plan for the night... so i joined melvin's frens. we went bowling. we played 2 games... it took us almost 2 and a half hours. by the time we finish, it's almost 12 midnite already....

after the bowling game... i meet up with kuan yik they all. we went to starbucks to have a drink and sit around... we are there for almost 2 hours~ we ended up doing funny things :P after the drink, we went back to ria apartment. i was very very tired then... so i slept 1st...

happy~

2005-04-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

my parent came to visit!!! it's been more than a 2 month i have not seen them... once a gain, i can be a baby~ hehehe. eventhough it only for a day, but the happy feeling is unmeasureable... it's been almost a year since my parents came to kl. spend whole day shopping at mid valley. we stay at the hotel right next to mid valley megamall. it's called Cititel Hotel. the hotel was still considered new. the environment there was fine.

today, after checking out fron the hotel, i brought my parents to have breakfast in setapak. the area that i stayed for almost 3 years. then broght them to carrefour for more shopping~ :) after much shopping, i bring them to have lunch. i had been to the restaurant before. so, i introduce to them. my parent likes it there~ they left me after around 3pm.

finish exam loooo!!!

2005-04-20T22:59:00.000+08:00

finally... i've been through 2 years already... and final exam is already past... bee through 2 years of good times, and unavoidably, the bad times too. now, i can only hope that everything will go fine in this last semester. i don't think i did good on my last paper. but i've done all the best i could. hopefully the lecturer is nice enough to let us pass easily...

for these 2 years, i've found some great friends in TARC. well.... been with them 2 years, everything is kind of clear now. i finally can decide which friend is worth to have. some people doesn't really take friendship important. most people think that friends is just a mere classmate. all they do is just go to class with a mask on the face.

the genting trip is already confirmed. i m quite sad about the number of people going on this trip. i was hoping most people to go. but... sometimes, things just don't happen as plan. i seriously don't understand what everyone is thinking. it's the last trip ever that we will be going together. some people don't want to go because of some argument, misunderstand that happen previously. they just can't settle it like an adult. i felt very dissappointed on the way they think.

for me, personally... i do have people that i don't like going on the trip. but... the main objective for this trip is to have a last class gathering. we not not even get to see each other anymore.... even for the person we hate, it will be the last time to see them...

rest for a week~

2005-04-13T19:47:00.000+08:00

hmm... exam had already started. the 1st day was bad... never expected the question will be that tough for my drawing 2 paper...we are required to make a story board... the story line was given and we have to create the story board according to the story line. to say it's hard... not really... but just out of my expectation. i was expecting something more simple like a picture for us to re-draw using hatching technique... what ever it is... it's already pass.

for the second paper, it's cultural... can't really say it's tough... but too little time to study... but at least i did all i can... i had written all that i know. all i can do now is just hope that i manage to at least pass this paper.

=.=

2005-04-10T06:47:00.000+08:00

redang trip is confirm cancelled already... the event have been change to genting trip instead. so.... the whole plan will be 3 days 2 nights at genting... the date is 25th April 2005 cos some classmate have exam till 23rd... some plan to stay in hotels. but i find it not so good cos a room cant really fit so many people... i was thinking, staying in an apartment would be much better... hmm... kuan yik plan to have steam boat when we are at genting. i think it's a good plan~

well... exam will start tomorrow... hope i can manage everything well~ i wish good luck to all my classmates!!! Gambatae~

exam coming...

2005-04-07T02:20:00.000+08:00

finally, everything is finished... i've spend whole day not sleeping to draw the stupid human figure. now have to be ready for the final exam. my first paper is on the 11th april. then another paper on the 12th... my last paper will be on the 18th... after that... FREEDOM!!!!

the redang trip will most probaly be cancelled... actually, i quite upset with most of my classmates... they are not very steady in decision making. they just like to drag everything until it's the last minute... for me, it's not about the beaches and the girls. i just hope that for the last time, at least, the whole class(maybe not everyone~) can go out together for one last time...

a li'l relief~

2005-04-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

at last, i can breathe a little bit easier... the final exhibition is finally over. 2 days ago, i hardly had enough sleep. i went through the most hectic days of this semester. we have to stayback in college until it's almost midnight to do our preparation for the exhibition. i was in a very very bad mood.... i think it's because of being so tired... when i reach home, atill have to do another assignment due the next day. i hardly sleept enough....

that's not the end of the story... the next day, we have to be in the college again for the preparation. we have to be in college around 6am =.= the event starts at 9am... thank god everything is running smooth... i a the camera man on the day. it's the first time i do this... it's quite fun but my hand almost cramp... it's so tiring to hold up the camera for so long... overall, everything is ok... even the the head of school is complimenting us for our effort on the exhibition and our assignment. so happy to hear tat!!!

now there is still assignments on hand... one is due tomolo... another one is due this wednesday... for tomorrow, i still can manage to finish on time i think... but for the wednesday one.... i dun think anyone will be able to finish everything.... imagine we have to draw 120 pages of figure sketching!!! each page at least 2 figure from head to toe... i think the tutor pruposely wanted to torture us... I HATE NG!!!! I HATE TAN POO HUAT!!!!

got to start my work now~

=.=''

2005-03-29T15:12:00.000+08:00

haihz... more than a week didnt update my blog already... i was very busy for the pass week. 1st is the group assignment... we have to pass up the proposal... and i only have a day to do~ then the drawing 2 class and work... and now, we have to prepare for the final project for commercial design. it's an exhibition which will be on the 2nd of april... it's only a few days away... so many things to prepare. haihzzz.... after this week.... have to hand-in more than 100 of human figure sketching. i really don't know how to finish up all of it...

my classmates is plannig a trip to pulau redang right after the exam... it's kind of a last gathering for the class as this will be our final semester. after this semester, we really which path we are going. some will come out to work. some will still continue their advance diploma. and some will maybe go to other college to pursue their study. well.... for myself, i'll stop studying after this semester and go out to find a job. but af course, before working.... i'll take a rest for about a month.... to relax myself a little bit.... hmm... gotta stop here now.... still got many things to do~

free at last~

2005-03-20T01:15:00.000+08:00

i've been busy for the past week. load of assignments due befor the weekends. sigh~ i had gone through the hardest part of this semester already. for the whole week, i've been doing assignments non-stop. seriously, i felt that i couldn't breathe. it's like i dun have much time to complete the assignments. whenever there is a break time, i have to attend drawing 2 class... but after today, i think i will more time to do work already... friday class won't be as busy. wondering what happen to NG... suddenly so nice... now, the asshole is TAN!!!

well, watever it is.... i only have to tolerate for 3 more weeks.... after that... i dun have to see his sickening face anymore...

supposedly today i have presentation... but it ended up cancelled. this is becouse the tutor can't take it anymore... my presentation was suppose to start at 3.30pm. the tutor have to handle other class as early as 9.00am... poor miss muharni... flirted wit her a while today~ hahaha~ now is time to rest... even only one day... it's better than nothing~

i've improve

2005-03-11T18:45:00.000+08:00

hmm... as far as i can remember, yesterday was the first time MR NG says my drawing skills has improved. that is the first time he praise my work. yesterday was a very tired day... as usual, my thursday class is until 9pm. as i said in the previous post, this semester is so busy. but now is already the 3rd week, and i guess i m starting to get used to the time.

by next week, most of my assignment need to be submitted. i'll be having a very busy weekend...

it's been a while since piggy find me... i guess she is busy with leo lor~ i also haven't receive much SMS from stella nowadays...

rest day~

2005-03-08T22:05:00.000+08:00

there is no class today!!! yay~ i had enough sleep already... but i dun think it will last for long though~

me and my classmates played FUTSAL in the afternoon. the weather is quite hot. i was like lack of oxygen in the field. i felt like i'm going to faint.... it was scary. but after a little bit of rest and drink enoh of water, i'm ok already. today's FUTSAL was quite fun... everyone is enjoying themself. it's quite different from other time. cos everyone was like playing not in a very serious manner...

i have to finish up my drawing later.... the exercise is to draw eggs using hatching technique. o dun think it will take me long time to finish the drawing :) after that, if i'm not tired, i'll be doing commercial design's work...

tired....

2005-03-08T04:27:00.000+08:00

1st day of the week... but it's like i can't take the pressure anymore. too many things to do. sigh... having early classes in the morning is not quite a problem to me nowadays. but i can't bear the tiredness after the class. it's not just because of spending most of the time in college make me tired, it's the time after the class and have to do so many assignments that is killing me...

today's class was quite ok. class finishes about an hour earlier than i expected. after that, my classmates and i went to Dasein Academy of Art... wow~ the works done by the students there were awesome!!! i was like so.... amazed looking at their work. comparing to what i've seen in my own TARC, our work is just like shit! i was wondering, how can i compete with the students from other colleges for job after i graduate.... i m not the best, but yet i m not the worst of all... i consider myself as the one in the middle...

when we done looking at the works of the students.... i m starting to have interest to further my studies. i found it not quite enough to hold a diploma in mass communication if i want to work in at least the advertising world. but, if i wanted to further my studies, it'll take me at least 2 more years. i dun think i want to spend that much time in a college anymore. i've spend 5 years studying. it's time for me to come out to the real world and stop spending my parents money. so... i ask the counsellor at Dasein if they offer any night classes or part time courses for people like me and come to my surprise, they just started offering short courses. i was planning now.. after graduating from TARC, i will try to get a job. then i might be taking short courses to gain more knowledge on adobe photoshop, adobe illustrator, and i wanted to learn qurak express. i find most companies require their stff to know quark express... i know it's a famous software in the designing world. but too bad i couldn't learn that in TARC. i m not complaining TARC is bad, cos i know from the very beginning TARC offer Grahic Design as part of Mass Communication. i know i will get a Diploma in Mass Communication eventhough it was suppose to be a course in art.

hmm... now is not the time to think so much... i better concentrate on my studies as this is my last semester. the only thing i hope now is to graduate on time and start earning and spending muy own money. i don't really want to burden my parents anymore. i have already spend more than what i should have. i was suppose to graduate 3 years ago. i kind of feel guilty of what i did the last time. i had dissappointed my parents once. now i promise myself i won't let that happen again. it's a promise i made to myself and also my parents.

3years ago, i made one mistake. that is taking things for granted. but my parents was never mad at me. that make me feels more guilty. the better they treat me, the more guilty i will feel. my new aim when i change to graphic design is that, if everybody else can pass or do anything, so can i. i won't complain it's the lecturer's fault anymore if i fail. i will blame myself for not working hard on it.

...

2005-03-04T01:42:00.000+08:00

another tiring day.... =.='' i had class since 10am till 9pm. 11 hours in college with only 2hours break in the middle.... what kind of stupid time table is that!!! wednesday even worst. 10am till 4pm non-stop!!! arghhhh!!! the college think we are what???? we don't have to eat??? man of steel???

sigh~~ i've talk to ms dearna about it already... she say she'll look into the matter. hope that she will be ale to do something about the stupid time table... because of the stupid tight timetable, i've been sleeping around 5am and wake up at 9am for the pass few days... so many assignments. arghhh!!!!!

hmm.... i had make stella upset... she thinks i ignoring her calls... but i m not~ if stella really wants to think it that way... i got nothing much more to say...

it's been a while~

2005-03-02T14:20:00.000+08:00

hmm.... it already almost been a whole week since my last blog. it's really been a busy week for me. the classes was all so pack together. maybe it's because of the extra repeat subject that i took. this semester is a very short semester. so... everything was so packed up.

my result was released on the 26th Feb. before that, i was so worry about it. my result was so unexpected. i passed all subjects last semester. i was expecting to have at least 2 subject failed. but... it's kind of a good news for me~on this very same day also is stella's b-day... did nothing much about that...

today... we celebrate JL and Vicky's b-day in KFC. though we didnt do anything special, but most of us had fun being together after the class... kind of think back, it's already been almost two years we are in the same class. time passes by so fast. after celebrating their b-day, melvin, me, kailee, bb and ping went back to college. we were palying basketball. it's quite hot today. but we still played for about an hour... then we go home to rest because we already planned to play FUTSAL at 4pm.

quite a tiring day... after the FUTSAL, we went to have dinner together. then i went home to take a nap... piggy was not quite happy today... something had happened in her relationship. hope she can go through the rough time..

i think nothing much happened for almost a week. my life was just... going to class, go home rest a while, eat and sleep... and a little bit of gaming...

coll started already~

2005-02-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

it's been the 3rd day college re-opened... the 1st day, there is not much people going for class. my classmates and i go for a drink after the class. it's kind of like getting together thing after semester break for 3 weeks. we ended up at TBR having lunch...

my hp was barred yesterday... sigh~ for one whole day cannot message piggy... actually i cant message anybody at all. no class yesterday.... spend whole afternoon at ben's house. see him play his PS2 whole afternoon. he's playing Devil May Cry 3. wow~ it's a very nice game... the graphic was great!!!

today is my 2nd day going to class because there is no class on tuesday. my class starts at 10am. the first class is lecture for my repeat subject. the lecture was handle by mr PH Tan. hmm... it's kind of expected. he's a man without much expression... hes like a piece of log. then.... the tutorial was handled by NG. he's the asshole that failed me and make me repeat for this subject. he is a JERK!!! when i see his face... feels like wan to punch him straight in his fucking face!!!

hmm... gone through a very tough day~ take a nap when i got home... woke up around 8pm...

took a bath... then unexpectedly my hp is un-barred already. then i got a SMS from piggy~ :) so happy~ she ask me to go online with her~ and now.. here i m in the cyber cafe with her... hmm.. looking at her chatting with her bf... sigh... oni if... that is me....

2005-02-19T21:12:00.000+08:00

woke up around 1pm just now.... went to have lunch with kelvin. after that... i went back home spend the afternoon... the weather was so hot today. sigh.... spend my whole afternoon lying on the bed. can't fall to sleep. sigh... was suppose to go watch movie with willy... but stupid willy woke up around 5pm... but here i'm waiting for the show... hehehehe. willy and i went to midvalley around 6.30pm. we went to buy movie tickets first. then went to kim gray restaurant. hmm... the food there is quite nice. most of the food they offer is special. i mean... can't really find in other places. now i m in e-zone cyber cafe. the movie is at 10pm. so i've to spend 1 and a half hours here...

back in kl~

2005-02-19T01:37:00.000+08:00

i m back in kl already~ took 11am bus... reach kl house around 4.30pm. the journey was so long.... the bus stop three times before reach kl. the 1st thing i do when i reah home is, unpack my stuff n clean my room... my room was so messy. cos i just moved in before going back to hometown... a lot of stuff need to be unpacked.

after unpack everything, went to have dinner with willy. then went back home to take a bath... quite boring the whole nite... after cleaning my room, went out again to play snooker with willy... then we went to cyber cafe to online for while.. feel quite tired and sleepy now.

i don't know what i'm doing

2005-02-15T11:46:00.000+08:00

for me... valentine's day is a lonely day. but something special happened on the very day... i'm almost with stella again... but now... deep down in my heart, im thinking if i had made the right decision. i was thinking... was my decision made because i'm lonely and needed someone to spend my valentine's day... i had the guilty feeling for interrupting the relationship that is between stella and james.

i think i need some time to think over the steps i'm taking now. i'm not really prepared to be commited for the time being. i'm quite satisfied as single. i don't have to think so much when i'm doing anything. maybe i should tell stella how i really feel...

stella: if you are reading this... i just want u to know this... i think we should start off as friend now... let the time to decide whether we should be together or not, ok? if we are meant to be together, someday... we will. i think i'm suitable to have relationships now... i think the problem has always been me... not you. i'm sorry...

boredom fills my day....

2005-02-13T21:50:00.000+08:00

it's sunday.... and yet i've nothing better to do. i've been home whole day doing nothing. but then... i've try to modify my blog page. dun get much done, though.... hmm... still have one more week in my hometown.

sigh~~

i still dunno how to spend my week here... maybe i'll just go spend my days near the beach... :P or maybe i'll just stay home figuring how to write the java script to design my blog page~ hmm... kelvin is back in kl oredi.... willy plan to go back on the 17th or 18th... ben will go back on the 20th. well... for me, most probaly will be 18th~ sigh.... guess i m gonna stop blogging here~

got a SMS from hui li around 7pm... she watch movie with leo~ i asked her if they are officially couple already... but she said no... wondering what's happening between them... hope everything is fine. tomolo will be my saddest day of the year... was suppose to be very sweet with stella, but then... sigh~ stella got a new bf oredi. i m glad to hear this~ at least she can get over with me~

This is for stella: Wish you a Happy Valentine's day~ if he ever bully you, let me know~;) @}--

This is for hui li (piggy): @}-- Happy Valentine's Day~ hope u will be happy with leo~ if he break your heart, i'll break him :P @}--

To all people who is reading this blog: Happy Valentine's Day!!! @}--

2005-02-11T16:12:00.000+08:00

this picture was taken 2 days ago with my parents :) everyone is happy~

2005-02-11T00:19:00.000+08:00

hmm.... i've been at home whole night. doing nothing. fell asleep around 10pm just now... can said... i just woke up not long ago... my mum suddenly burst into my room looking for me... hmm... just got a misscalled from hui li... she doesn't sound so happy today. don't really what problem she have... i guess got something to do with her relationship. well... i cant call her anymore... my hp is going to be barred soon. now... i can just SMS her... don't know how long will this last...

feel like going to sleep soon... nothing much for me to do here anyway...

boring day~

2005-02-10T20:56:00.000+08:00

going out today for a few hours... doing nothing most of the time though~ hmm... finally got a miss call from hui li~ didnt get to talk to her, but she SMS me telling me she had a fight with her brother... she is alone at home and haven't had her dinner... i'm a li'l bit :( well hope she'll find something to eat...

2005-02-10T14:28:00.000+08:00

hmm... woke up around 12pm just now... have quite a fun night yesterday. came home around 3am this morning :P nothing much is planned for the day~ hopefully today will be as much fun as yesterday... kinda miss hui li... wondering what is she doing now~

my 1st blog~

2005-02-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

well, here i m for the 1st time... today is Chinese New Year~ i've been going out since 1pm... go to few of my fren's house. get 'ang pau' on this very 1st day of Chinese New Year. came home about 6pm for dinner.... going a while later... eheheh~ time to get more 'ang pau'~