a little updates...

went on a vacation trip to Hat Yai on the 26-29th Dec... It's quite a good experience for me since I've never been to any other country. It's actually quite true when people says Thailand is a paradise... especially for men. Anywhere you go, there is somehow a place trading sex(of cos it's not cheap). well, enough of that already...

Other than that, I like the food over there too. anywhere I go, there's people selling pork. Even on the roadside. Even in the McDonald's. The people there is actually quite friendly. I didn't do any shopping over there... Can't find anything I like... i guess...

After coming back from the trip, I know I can't be happy anymore. This is because I've made a decision. A decision that will hurt the one I love... and myself. A decision that been going on mind for long time. Do i really love her as deep as i m 2 years back? This is the question i keep asking myself... my answer is "not anymore". the feeling had slowly fade away from me.

Before I go more on my story... here's a little history... I know her through a friend in 2005. We started our relationship in the 2006. When we started the relationship, I know she had a bf... but she had problem with him, planning to break up... and bla bla bla... I guess you can get the story, right... after nearly 2 years, she's still with him. whenever I ask about the situation, the conversation will turn cold... I fully understand that as the 3rd person, i dont really have the right to question since i know it from the start. So I decided to tell her, if she cant make a choice by the end of 2008, it will be the end of us. not to threaten, it's just that I'm tired of waiting.

she was here in kl with me on the last few days of the year.. I ask her one last time, has she break up with him... she said no. then i ask, when do you plan to do so? she say dont know.

I think that is the last time I'll be asking her those question. On the day she leaves KL back to her hometown, I SMS her, let's just break up, dont have to force yourself to break up with him if it's too hard... we've oni been together 3 years, but with him, it's nearly 7 years. It should be easier to break up with me than him.

Now is the 4th day... I think I've receive more than 100 SMSes from her... which starts to annoyed me... in the SMS, she says, she already break up with the other guy actually in NOV. she's planning to give me a surprise in CNY. and actually she have also plan for next years trip to KL...

Some of you might think I'm cold-blooded and cruel... because I only reply her, i'm sorry, it's too late to tell me now. the feeling completely faded the moment i ask u the questions. After the sms, i still receive a lot other msg.

Anyone who's reading this, pls give me some advice.... TQ