Jonas Brothers - Love Bug

Called her for the first time yesterday
Finally found the missing part of me
Felt so close but you were far away
Left me without anything to say

Now I'm speechless, over the edge, I'm just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again

I can't get your smile out of my mind
(I can't get you out of my mind)
I think about your eyes all the time
You're beautiful but you don't even try
(You don't even, don't even try)
Modesty is just so hard to find

Now I'm speechless, over the edge, I'm just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again

Kissed her for the first time yesterday
Everything I wished that it would be
Suddenly I forgot how to speak
Hopeless, breathless, baby can't you see?

Now I'm...

Now I'm speechless, over the edge of this, breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again
Love Bug again

不懂为什麽

当他们突然说起关於你 我只有静静坐在旁边听
我只想知道多一些 关於你的东西

当世界渐渐改变了四季 当春夏秋冬都已成过去
在这段慢长的日子里 对你的感觉还是那样痴迷

我不懂为什麽 有这麽多的女子
偏偏让我选中你 让我对你动心
也许是因为一双眼睛
也许是因为天意注定

我不懂为什麽 有这麽多的女子
偏偏让我在深夜里 每晚把你想起
也许是因为已经注定
也许是因为我已爱上你

词：黄伟强
曲：黄伟强

this is a song composed and written by my elder brother. he gave this song to me a few years back...

it's complicated... maybe... maybe not...

when i see someone put their relationship status as it's complicated, it makes me think... wat's so complicated? i've ask myself many times. i come to my own conclusion... when u love someone, u want to b wit him/her. u'll miss him/her a lot. u'll wan to see him/her more often. u'll wan to include him/her in ur plan for future. when u love someone, u'll love without questioning the past. because the one u love is in present. the future is full of mystery. so i wouldnt know what will happen next. but i will oni hope that the person i love is with me in my future. when there is 2 of these person appear in ur life, u'll have to decide, which one do i miss more, which one do i wan to be with now...

i find it quite painful b stuck in a triangle love affair. been there, done that :) but mayb it's me... so far, i've gotten in many relationship that makes me the 3rd person. it's kind of weird that the girl i always fall for is someone's gf. up until now, i m still like tat =.="

oh well... just some of thoughts when i cant sleep...

I Miss You Like Crazy
Artist: The Moffats

I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that i never had

When i think of you
I don't know what to do
When will i see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl i'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

You are all that i want
You're all that i need
Can't you see how i feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real

When i think of you
I don't know what to do
When will i see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl i'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

This is quite an old song. but it says what my heart is thinking.

~Memorable Redang Trip~

went on a relaxing trip to Redang Island on the 15-17 May 2009... get to know 3 new friend who went on the trip with me. i went with 4 other. 1 is my housemate, wei li, and the other 3 girls. on the 1st day, i only got to know their name(Vernace, Emily, Evans) right before went on the bus. at beginning, it's a bit awkward... but soon after the bus start moving we got to know each other a bit better. Vernace is the most "ganas" girl among them. Emily is a bit shy in the beginning... but she turns out to b a evil & dangerous girl... Evans was the normal ones.

We took a night bus ride to Kuala Terengganu and reach around 4.30am, 15th May... we were a bit too early as the agent will only pick us up from the bus terminal around 6am(according to Vernace). so we went to McD to grab some snacks. then we waited there until around 5.45am... then she called the agent. then we found out..... actually the agent was already there around 4am! arghhhh! we got cheated by Vernace! Vernace also told us that the ferry will only be at the jetty around 12 pm... deep down inside i was thinking " WTF! we have to wait another 6 hours to get the boat ride???" anyway... i didnt really believe her... my instinct was right. when we ask the agent bout the ferry ride, he told us, we are leaving at 7.45am to the jetty. then will take a ferry to Redang Island! and again Vernace bluff us =.="

the weather is quite good... upon reaching the island... i look at the sea.... it was blue... the water is so clear that i can see the sand underneath. i m feeling exited already. we reach Redang Reef Resort around 10am.

upon reaching, we were given brief on the do's & dont's. i m actually quite tired from the long ride. but looking out at the sea... the clear water beach... all the tiredness is gone... i felt so relaxed! the lunch was served at 12pm... after having our lunch... we went back to our room(quad-sharing) to rest for a while and get ready to go snorkerling! the 1st session is going to Marine Park... this is the 1st time i snorkelled. i m actually a bit scared and nervous... but... whatever... i paid for all these oredi...

after the snorkelling session, we went back to the resort and had our tea break. after the tea break, we start to snap pictures... walk around the area... the we went to another resort. hmm... there is a sign near their swimming pool "Strictly For Laguna Beach Resort Guest Only"... then i told my friends... i dont like this rule, and i m going to break it... hahaha! so we went and swim in their pool!

after trespassing the other resort's pool, we continue to walk along the beach for some sightseeing. snapping pictures... snap here, snap there :) then we saw a group of people playing beach volleyball... so we ask if we can join. the group of people is friendly enough to let us join ^^ so we played for a while... until our hand hurts! hahaha! after playing beach volleyball, we walk back to our room, preparing to have dinner.

after dinner, we went back to our room again to have a baths and have a little rest... actually after bath i dooze off as we were lying on the bed to relax... haha! we don't really have any plan for the night actually. but around 9pm, there was loud music, good music! i was wake up by the music. but thanks to the music, wei li was awake... so... both of us plan to out and see what's happening? where the heck is the music coming from. at first we tot it was nearby. but when we went out, we found out that the music is actually from across the beach. there was a beach party going on. so wei li n me walk toward the party place, The Happening. the DJ was quite good. once reach the place, we bought a drink. i get myself a small bottle of beer... and wei li just drink coke... he's not an alchohol fan.

then we find a chair (for sunbathing) to lie down. i look up the sky... so relaxing... there were so many stars! then we thought of the girls! so i ask wei li to call them up... wei li called vernace, no respond... then called emily, no respond. probaly bcos the coverage there is a bit sucky. then wei li SMS them. in the end, only emily got respond. she was actually hesitating wether want to come out or not. in the end, she came :D at 1st, the music they put is nice, R&B and hip hop.. then it switch to house(which most people dun really like).

the crowd is getting smaller and smaller. the DJ realised tat, so he come up with erm... some activity... he ask all patrons to go to the beach, hold hands together and form a big circle. so... we followed his instructions from then on... the DJ put the chinese song for a movie(夏日嬤嬤茶) which actually made redang famous. can considered as the Island theme song(浪花一朵朵). so we walk(and a bit of running) in circle... walk to the left, walk to the right... the in the middle of the song, the DJ told us to run forward! as u can imagine, it's a circle, so when we run forward, eventually we will run into the person standing on the opposite side! it was so fun... everyone is enjoying it! then the mood is back! so everyone is back to the dance floor(actually is sand floor, The Happening is not a indoor club. hehe!) had a great time shaking our body on the beach... for the 1st time wear shorts n slippers to party... after tat, again we sit at the chairs n lie down to enjoy the view of sky filled with stars! then we went back to sleep... when we reach our room, i can hear Vernace snoring... hehehe... she must have been tired... it's not very loud... but still can hear it :P

the 2nd day, Vernace wake me up... i think is the 1st time i saw her shy face throughout the trip :P so as scheduled for the day... we went for breakfast. After breakfast, while waiting for the rest to get ready, Vernace and me went to a big rock opposite the room to sit and sunbath for a while. Then we went to snorkelling,.. nothing much special on this snorkelling trip. just that, i m not nervous or scared anymore. it's actually quite fun. after the snorkelling session, Vernace ask the life guard to bring us to see baby sharks... and the life guard is very nice guy, he did bring us to see baby sharks... but... there was no shark... instead, we saw a turtle :D After we had our lunch, some went back to the room to rest and wait for the lunch to be served. Emily didnt bath before sleep(=.=" eck eck). Vernace and me went to the beach, and have a nap. the wind was so.... comforatable.

We rest for about an hour. Then, we went for another snorkelling session. erm... the snorkelling session is quite tiring and fun. but quite dissappointed, because there is not much nice corals to see... right after the snorkelling session, another life guard bring us to find baby sharks again. this time is at another location. we find for quite a while... actually already given up hope to see baby shark. but... suddenly, we saw 2 baby sharks swimming around! i was so excited! After we are satisfied with snorkelling, we went for our tea break.

After the tea break, the girls went back to the room and bath. Wei Li and me went to trespass the Laguna Beach Resort's pool again :P Wei Li dived-in... so i wanted to try... and .. it's a painful try... we went to a jacuzzi. it was so relaxing. after swimming for about an hour, we went to have a walk at beach. then we bump a group of people playing beach volleyball. the group went to snorkelling with us. so they ask us to join them :) so we did :P after a while, the girls came and joined us. and again, we are snapping pictures here and there :D

after walking around, we went back to our room and prepare for dinner. today, they serve barbecue style... the food was nice... but the portions was a little too much. after diner, we went back to rest... Wei Li and me went out to the beach to sit at the chairs and enjoy the wind and the view. i dooze off... the wind is relaxing and it makes u feel sleepy... after about 1 or 2 hours... the girl are done resting and called us up and wanted to go play pool at the nearby resorts. so we play a couple frames. the girls can play pool...... ya.. they can just play :P
after playing pool, we went to a cafe, Summer Point, to have a supper. there was a live perfomance. they are great! i guess that should be one of the good performance i've seen at a cafe :) enjoys the music, the song they sing, their voice is just great. after finish our supper, we went to the chairs nearby to lie down and enjoy the view of sky filled with star... feel sad at that particular moment. don't like the thought of leaving the next day.... i m going to miss all the joy and fun on the island. i m going to miss Vernace... Emily... Evans.... everything....

throughout the trip, we have a lot of fun. eventhough i've known the girls for only 3 days, but it didnt felt that way. it felt like i've know them for years! i got specially close with Vernace, she had the charateristics that somehow attracts me, just too bad i know her too late... emily... she's a little bit slow to get along with... but eventually, we are close enough to call ourself friends. Evans, she's the quiet one. didnt really kept in touch with her. Wei Li... i see him everyday! haha! this is one trip i've enjoy so much!

a little updates...

went on a vacation trip to Hat Yai on the 26-29th Dec... It's quite a good experience for me since I've never been to any other country. It's actually quite true when people says Thailand is a paradise... especially for men. Anywhere you go, there is somehow a place trading sex(of cos it's not cheap). well, enough of that already...

Other than that, I like the food over there too. anywhere I go, there's people selling pork. Even on the roadside. Even in the McDonald's. The people there is actually quite friendly. I didn't do any shopping over there... Can't find anything I like... i guess...

After coming back from the trip, I know I can't be happy anymore. This is because I've made a decision. A decision that will hurt the one I love... and myself. A decision that been going on mind for long time. Do i really love her as deep as i m 2 years back? This is the question i keep asking myself... my answer is "not anymore". the feeling had slowly fade away from me.

Before I go more on my story... here's a little history... I know her through a friend in 2005. We started our relationship in the 2006. When we started the relationship, I know she had a bf... but she had problem with him, planning to break up... and bla bla bla... I guess you can get the story, right... after nearly 2 years, she's still with him. whenever I ask about the situation, the conversation will turn cold... I fully understand that as the 3rd person, i dont really have the right to question since i know it from the start. So I decided to tell her, if she cant make a choice by the end of 2008, it will be the end of us. not to threaten, it's just that I'm tired of waiting.

she was here in kl with me on the last few days of the year.. I ask her one last time, has she break up with him... she said no. then i ask, when do you plan to do so? she say dont know.

I think that is the last time I'll be asking her those question. On the day she leaves KL back to her hometown, I SMS her, let's just break up, dont have to force yourself to break up with him if it's too hard... we've oni been together 3 years, but with him, it's nearly 7 years. It should be easier to break up with me than him.

Now is the 4th day... I think I've receive more than 100 SMSes from her... which starts to annoyed me... in the SMS, she says, she already break up with the other guy actually in NOV. she's planning to give me a surprise in CNY. and actually she have also plan for next years trip to KL...

Some of you might think I'm cold-blooded and cruel... because I only reply her, i'm sorry, it's too late to tell me now. the feeling completely faded the moment i ask u the questions. After the sms, i still receive a lot other msg.

Anyone who's reading this, pls give me some advice.... TQ

2 years n 4 months... I didn't realise it's been that long since I blog... A lot of things happened in these 2 years. Things that happen in my family, my life, my career, my friendship... But time really flies when you are not counting it.

IN 2007
I'm still working in Magic Color Sdn. Bhd. The situation turn from bad to worse. Old staff resigning. The company was under-staff. From 25 people working, only 10 stays with the company. Even my 2nd boss leave the company(so... u know how "good" is my 1st boss :P). The only thing i miss in the company is the people that have work with me for about 2 years. Then again... most of them is not there anymore. The only reason I've stayed there so long is because of my 2nd boss. He's a good boss.

IN 2008 to NOW
I've resign from Magic Color Sdn. Bhd. Now I'm working in Milk & Co Sdn. Bhd, formerly known as DDB Int'l, an advertising agency. it's a sister company of Naga DDB. Still working as a Graphic Artist, but the work there is better than my old company. In my old company, my title is the same, Graphic Artist... but actually is doing everything... from marketing to designing to printing to finishing and sometime despatch. Now, I only have to do my part of work. I guess this is what 'organized company' means. Do only your part. Life is a lot better now. I get to do what i want. With the salary offered, I can start to enjoy my life a bit. I think I have lost contact with most of my classmates... no more gathering... no more outings... but then, i come to know more new friends. And of course still keep in contact with old friends.Nothing much change in my family. Things is as normal as old time.

P/S: will try to update more :P

back on track....

everything seems to go back to the same.... i m now ok oredi~ the depression n sad period has become a history which i couldn't change. life still goes on as usual nowadays... but one thing remains the same... i'll blog after a long long time~

sorry...

i m sorry.... i won't be blogging for sometime... for those who know me... if u all want to get to know my news, just give me a call~ i will be available for yum cha anytime, any place~

old frens~

after four month, it's the 1st time i went to Time Square & Sg Wang... actually wanted to go there just to buy guitar strings... then i decided since i m there i'll go and meet up some frens...

1st, i went to find loo wei cos i park my car in Time Square. she's working in City Chain. chat with her for a while only cos she seems busy. well~ it's sunday, so more customers for her to serve... after updating some stuff with her, i went to Sg Wang to find carol. it's been a long long time ever since the last time i saw her~ she hadn't change much... we talk quite a lot~ i think i spend quite some time in her shop. then i went to shop for my guitar strings. walk around Sg Wang fo a while... today there is this event promoting a new magazine "Jasmine". loads of people was there to get free gifts. and a lot of "leng lui" for me to see oso~ :P after that i had lunch wit carol in KFC. talk to her quite a lot though... damn i miss those days we spend during tat 2 years in college... how i wish we could have a gathering again... but i think it's hard nowadays cos everyone have their own stuff to busy with... summore the time that we are free are different. sigh~

after having lunch with carol, i went back home...

long long time since i last blog :)

it's been three month since i've blog... life have been so busy. i think i've stop blogging ever since i started to work. it's been three month i've been working in the same company. well... everything is going quite ok. all the people there is nice and easy to get along with... all except one... my boss. he is considered an asshole that like to scold people with no reason. i have been planning this a long time... to quit the job and find a new job. but now is already the 3rd month here. i think i just get over with my probation, get the EPF thingy settled... then i will quit this job.

working in this company is ok.. but the pay is considered not worth the work we are handling. imagine... we will only get RM7 for allowance after 12 hours of working. we don't get any OT charge... that means if i go in work at 9am, if i work until 9pm... i only get RM7. the worst thing is... if after 9pm and i still continue working... i dun get anything other than the RM7. with this kind of pay... who would want to work so hard for this company. no people is willing to spoil their health just for the stupid RM7.

haih~ i think i've been bitching enough about the company... exam is coming soon~ my paper will be on the 9th of september... hope i can get the paper cleared and graduate this time... wish me luck~

it's been a while~

it has been more than 3 weeks since the last time i blog... dun really have the mood to blog ever since i got my result. i have failed 1 subject... this means, i couldn't join the convocation held in july... sigh~ there is nothing much i could do about it. the result is already out...

but at least something cheer me up... i've found a job as a graphic designer. it was so unexpected. this is because, eventhough i still had 1 paper not yet cleared, the boss is still willing to hire me~ i guess my luck is not totally bad at all. the job i found was in a printing company. the company is called Magicolor Sdn. Bhd. it is located in PJ... somewhere near to Ikano Power Centre. the pay is considered ok for a fresh graduate. but truly, it's not enough since i have to cover my rental, fuel and toll charges. lucky i had a full support from my parents. they said they will give me financial support if i am having trouble. my dad got me a car for me to get to work...

gonna start working 1st june... wish i won't have any trouble in the company... especially with the collegues~ wish me luck :)

Visitors~

my aunties from singapore had came to my hometown to visit~ it ws so nice of them to travel such a long journey on the bus. the journey took them about 9 hours. my mum was so worried about them... normally, it'll took about 6hours only. they didn't bring any handphone, so it's kind of difficult to contact them... well... at last they arrive safely~ they stayed for 2nights.

no news from the job i applied few days ago... i think no point in waiting already~ going back to kl next week... my bro offered to fetch me back to kl~ he found a job in kl already... he'll start working in june. he'll be going to kl to look for a place to stay. he plan to stay at my place for a few days. now, there will be only my parents staying in hometown... feel kind of sad leaving them... but, we have no choice... hope we can visit them more often when we are working...

job~

i start to look for a job now~ there is only 2 things i worry about... the 1st is, i couldn't find a job... the second is, if i found a job very far from my place, i'll have to move... but... not much choice i have~ if i were to find a job far, i'll have no choice but to move.

i've been surfing around the net for job vacancies. it seems like most job i found is near PJ and Subang.. which is the both place that i'm not familiar with...

nth much for this entry... too much thing to worry... no mood to blog~

genting trip~

fun fun fun!!! this is all i can say about the trip.

the trip started off quite unpleasent... we gather at LRT station at 8 am... but we have to wait for JL. we waited for him almost an hour. so we took the 10am bus. reach genting highland around 12pm. right after we check-in, we headed straight to the theme park. at first, everyone seems to be stick-together. but after a few games... some seems to be hungry... and some doesn't really wan to play those ride... so we ended-up splitting into 2 group of people. after playing the new roller-coaster, we had lunch at First World Plaza. after lunch, some went back to ria apartment 1st... that make the group even smaller now... now only left me, yee ping, jin loon, ting ting and kuan yik. we have quite some fun though~

then we went back to ria also. most of us are tired since we have not stop playing ever since we reach genting. some even feel a little sick. i think it's because of raining when we just reach genting... most of us sleep for a while... then after taking a nap... we went for our dinner. for dinner, we split up... it's better to go find our own food as different have different taste... after dinner, it seems to be no plan for the night... so i joined melvin's frens. we went bowling. we played 2 games... it took us almost 2 and a half hours. by the time we finish, it's almost 12 midnite already....

after the bowling game... i meet up with kuan yik they all. we went to starbucks to have a drink and sit around... we are there for almost 2 hours~ we ended up doing funny things :P after the drink, we went back to ria apartment. i was very very tired then... so i slept 1st...

happy~

my parent came to visit!!! it's been more than a 2 month i have not seen them... once a gain, i can be a baby~ hehehe. eventhough it only for a day, but the happy feeling is unmeasureable... it's been almost a year since my parents came to kl. spend whole day shopping at mid valley. we stay at the hotel right next to mid valley megamall. it's called Cititel Hotel. the hotel was still considered new. the environment there was fine.

today, after checking out fron the hotel, i brought my parents to have breakfast in setapak. the area that i stayed for almost 3 years. then broght them to carrefour for more shopping~ :) after much shopping, i bring them to have lunch. i had been to the restaurant before. so, i introduce to them. my parent likes it there~ they left me after around 3pm.

finish exam loooo!!!

finally... i've been through 2 years already... and final exam is already past... bee through 2 years of good times, and unavoidably, the bad times too. now, i can only hope that everything will go fine in this last semester. i don't think i did good on my last paper. but i've done all the best i could. hopefully the lecturer is nice enough to let us pass easily...

for these 2 years, i've found some great friends in TARC. well.... been with them 2 years, everything is kind of clear now. i finally can decide which friend is worth to have. some people doesn't really take friendship important. most people think that friends is just a mere classmate. all they do is just go to class with a mask on the face.

the genting trip is already confirmed. i m quite sad about the number of people going on this trip. i was hoping most people to go. but... sometimes, things just don't happen as plan. i seriously don't understand what everyone is thinking. it's the last trip ever that we will be going together. some people don't want to go because of some argument, misunderstand that happen previously. they just can't settle it like an adult. i felt very dissappointed on the way they think.

for me, personally... i do have people that i don't like going on the trip. but... the main objective for this trip is to have a last class gathering. we not not even get to see each other anymore.... even for the person we hate, it will be the last time to see them...

rest for a week~

hmm... exam had already started. the 1st day was bad... never expected the question will be that tough for my drawing 2 paper...we are required to make a story board... the story line was given and we have to create the story board according to the story line. to say it's hard... not really... but just out of my expectation. i was expecting something more simple like a picture for us to re-draw using hatching technique... what ever it is... it's already pass.

for the second paper, it's cultural... can't really say it's tough... but too little time to study... but at least i did all i can... i had written all that i know. all i can do now is just hope that i manage to at least pass this paper.

=.=

redang trip is confirm cancelled already... the event have been change to genting trip instead. so.... the whole plan will be 3 days 2 nights at genting... the date is 25th April 2005 cos some classmate have exam till 23rd... some plan to stay in hotels. but i find it not so good cos a room cant really fit so many people... i was thinking, staying in an apartment would be much better... hmm... kuan yik plan to have steam boat when we are at genting. i think it's a good plan~

well... exam will start tomorrow... hope i can manage everything well~ i wish good luck to all my classmates!!! Gambatae~

exam coming...

finally, everything is finished... i've spend whole day not sleeping to draw the stupid human figure. now have to be ready for the final exam. my first paper is on the 11th april. then another paper on the 12th... my last paper will be on the 18th... after that... FREEDOM!!!!

the redang trip will most probaly be cancelled... actually, i quite upset with most of my classmates... they are not very steady in decision making. they just like to drag everything until it's the last minute... for me, it's not about the beaches and the girls. i just hope that for the last time, at least, the whole class(maybe not everyone~) can go out together for one last time...