1st day of the week... but it's like i can't take the pressure anymore. too many things to do. sigh... having early classes in the morning is not quite a problem to me nowadays. but i can't bear the tiredness after the class. it's not just because of spending most of the time in college make me tired, it's the time after the class and have to do so many assignments that is killing me...
today's class was quite ok. class finishes about an hour earlier than i expected. after that, my classmates and i went to Dasein Academy of Art... wow~ the works done by the students there were awesome!!! i was like so.... amazed looking at their work. comparing to what i've seen in my own TARC, our work is just like shit! i was wondering, how can i compete with the students from other colleges for job after i graduate.... i m not the best, but yet i m not the worst of all... i consider myself as the one in the middle...
when we done looking at the works of the students.... i m starting to have interest to further my studies. i found it not quite enough to hold a diploma in mass communication if i want to work in at least the advertising world. but, if i wanted to further my studies, it'll take me at least 2 more years. i dun think i want to spend that much time in a college anymore. i've spend 5 years studying. it's time for me to come out to the real world and stop spending my parents money. so... i ask the counsellor at Dasein if they offer any night classes or part time courses for people like me and come to my surprise, they just started offering short courses. i was planning now.. after graduating from TARC, i will try to get a job. then i might be taking short courses to gain more knowledge on adobe photoshop, adobe illustrator, and i wanted to learn qurak express. i find most companies require their stff to know quark express... i know it's a famous software in the designing world. but too bad i couldn't learn that in TARC. i m not complaining TARC is bad, cos i know from the very beginning TARC offer Grahic Design as part of Mass Communication. i know i will get a Diploma in Mass Communication eventhough it was suppose to be a course in art.
hmm... now is not the time to think so much... i better concentrate on my studies as this is my last semester. the only thing i hope now is to graduate on time and start earning and spending muy own money. i don't really want to burden my parents anymore. i have already spend more than what i should have. i was suppose to graduate 3 years ago. i kind of feel guilty of what i did the last time. i had dissappointed my parents once. now i promise myself i won't let that happen again. it's a promise i made to myself and also my parents.
3years ago, i made one mistake. that is taking things for granted. but my parents was never mad at me. that make me feels more guilty. the better they treat me, the more guilty i will feel. my new aim when i change to graphic design is that, if everybody else can pass or do anything, so can i. i won't complain it's the lecturer's fault anymore if i fail. i will blame myself for not working hard on it.
today's class was quite ok. class finishes about an hour earlier than i expected. after that, my classmates and i went to Dasein Academy of Art... wow~ the works done by the students there were awesome!!! i was like so.... amazed looking at their work. comparing to what i've seen in my own TARC, our work is just like shit! i was wondering, how can i compete with the students from other colleges for job after i graduate.... i m not the best, but yet i m not the worst of all... i consider myself as the one in the middle...
when we done looking at the works of the students.... i m starting to have interest to further my studies. i found it not quite enough to hold a diploma in mass communication if i want to work in at least the advertising world. but, if i wanted to further my studies, it'll take me at least 2 more years. i dun think i want to spend that much time in a college anymore. i've spend 5 years studying. it's time for me to come out to the real world and stop spending my parents money. so... i ask the counsellor at Dasein if they offer any night classes or part time courses for people like me and come to my surprise, they just started offering short courses. i was planning now.. after graduating from TARC, i will try to get a job. then i might be taking short courses to gain more knowledge on adobe photoshop, adobe illustrator, and i wanted to learn qurak express. i find most companies require their stff to know quark express... i know it's a famous software in the designing world. but too bad i couldn't learn that in TARC. i m not complaining TARC is bad, cos i know from the very beginning TARC offer Grahic Design as part of Mass Communication. i know i will get a Diploma in Mass Communication eventhough it was suppose to be a course in art.
hmm... now is not the time to think so much... i better concentrate on my studies as this is my last semester. the only thing i hope now is to graduate on time and start earning and spending muy own money. i don't really want to burden my parents anymore. i have already spend more than what i should have. i was suppose to graduate 3 years ago. i kind of feel guilty of what i did the last time. i had dissappointed my parents once. now i promise myself i won't let that happen again. it's a promise i made to myself and also my parents.
3years ago, i made one mistake. that is taking things for granted. but my parents was never mad at me. that make me feels more guilty. the better they treat me, the more guilty i will feel. my new aim when i change to graphic design is that, if everybody else can pass or do anything, so can i. i won't complain it's the lecturer's fault anymore if i fail. i will blame myself for not working hard on it.
2 comments:
hold on for another month :) then u will graduate already.
wishing u all the best.
Tsk tsk tsk ...
I'm so outdated,i don't even know that you have a blog.
Be patient, we're graduating in 3 weeks time. Muahahahaa....
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